I Want It All!

I want to wake up in the morning and follow the schedule I made for myself that will fix everything in my life.  I want to give healthy, tasty meals and snacks to my family.  I want to exercise regularly and fit comfortably into my clothes.  I want to make enough money to support my family.  I want to further my education and be more spiritual.  I want to live in a healthy environment.  I want to stay in contact with my friends and family.  I want to have fun & be in love.  I want it all and I believe I can have it. It’s not going to happen tomorrow and following a schedule just isn’t enough.

I am a list maker.  I make detailed, organized and well thought out lists for everything in my life.  The problem is the list only makes me feel guilty when I don’t finish it.  So much so, that I’ve stopped making lists.  Now I make schedules.  My day, everyday, all day,  until after the first of the year is on my calendar.  From the moment I wake until I go to bed, I have a plan. I’ve never lived up to that plan.  I stopped making schedules today. I’m so relieved.

I’m starting with small steps, building on what I’m already doing right.  I need goals I can reasonably meet in a short amount of time.  I need to feel I’m making progress often.  Seeing progress is important to me. It helps me continue to improve.

Starting tomorrow, I have three goals to meet every day. These three goals when achieved every day make me to feel like I’m making progress. The goals address nutrition, exercise and achieving financial security.

I’m going to make dinner every night. Dinner won’t be completely healthy and I may not actually cook it all myself. I like to have theme dinners to help everyone know what to expect.  We love breakfast for dinner on Mondays, Taco Tuesday is a must and we strive for spaghetti Sunday.  Wednesday, Thursday, Friday and Saturday need a theme.  I find getting dinner on the table on these nights is a challenge.

I’m going to exercise every day.  I will do something every day whether its taking a walk, weight lifting, riding the elliptical trainer, or yoga. I’d like my clothes to fit more comfortably, so I plan on more calorie burning exercises until then.  I firmly believe that even if all I do is take a walk that is better than sitting on the couch.

My family needs financial security. I will do something everyday that makes money. I had a great paying job for more than 20 years, but lost it due to my poor health.  Starting over, I know it will take time to have financial security.  Every bit helps.

I still want it all.  The road to get there starts tomorrow for me. No more lists or schedules.  Just 3 goals. Everything after that is just the icing on the cake…

Author: Undeniably Sara

Abuse is an unfortunate reality in this world and is more than physical assault. The invisible trauma we suffer can result in chronic illness, which is a relentless beast gnawing away at the soundness of mind. Education and support from others are vital in the healing journey. View all posts by Undeniably Sara