You Don’t Understand

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I wonder if you ever will. I’ve tried so many times to explain it. I told you one of my biggest triggers, and you don’t even try to stop doing it. Instead you turn the blame on me. Someone acted crazy once around you while doing something I also do. That is very different than being completely isolated from my friends and family for over a decade. You see I was systematically stripped of my identity and self worth in ways I cant fully put into words. Then I watched him start to do it to my children. When we finally got away from him he unleashed a a fury we are still reeling from. I’m scared much of the time because of him. That trigger I told you about, actually, every trigger I’ve told you about was a desperate plea from me. We got away from him but you can bring him right back in an instant. He instilled so much fear in us which is exactly what you do when you don’t even try to stop. No, it wasn’t you who did those horrible things to us. You just spark frightening flashbacks and expect us to let it go and understand you are having a difficult time coping with life. How selfish. If you don’t stop then you don’t care. You don’t understand…

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Author: Undeniably Sara

Hi, I'm Undeniably Sara. I'm learning how to live well with chronic illnesses by focusing on self-healing with the goal of lifelong health.

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