For My Children

It started innocently enough with a plea from the narcissist to report my whereabouts in detail. He said it was to keep him from worrying about me because he cared so much.

It progressed somewhat slowly to the narcissist “protecting” me from harm. This included anything and anyone who may wish to cause me harm, which included my family.

It grew insidiously to encompass extreme jealousy of my friends and a constant and intense fear that I would be unfaithful. It escalated quickly to crush any dream of mine that was not intended to glorify the narcissist.

The final push was to destroy every trace of my personhood and dignity. It ended with the narcissist’s attempt at devouring the souls of our children.

I was willing, at the time, to sacrifice myself because I believed there was nothing left of me. Surrendering my children to the narcissist was not an option. They had no choice in the matter, no options, and the only hope for them was me. It ended with me rising up to claim myself again, for the sake of my children.

We all know how it ended regardless of the fantasy the narcissist created to appease himself and those he currently manipulates. We are healing and are stronger than you can imagine. We will prevail and live in the light, but you will always hide in the shadows of your lies.


Author: Undeniably Sara

Abuse is an unfortunate reality in this world and is more than physical assault. The invisible trauma we suffer can result in chronic illness, which is a relentless beast gnawing away at the soundness of mind. Education and support from others are vital in the healing journey.

4 thoughts on “For My Children”

  1. He will hide behind those lies believing they are the truth while still trying to grab ahold of you and suck you back under!!!! My children and I are still recovering as well and it’s been 5 years

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