Fear of the Past

The realization and acceptance of my role in past experiences is a driving force for the fear I struggle with daily.  The belief that pure chance had brought unhappiness and strife to me was blissfully ignorant.  After all, the odds were in my favor that all the bad hands had already been dealt to me and the future held good luck.  There may be a small nugget of truth to chance or luck but the bulls-eye painted on my back is made highly visible to those seeking to harm by my tolerance and lack of self-confidence.  The fear of repeating the past is exacerbated by the knowledge that I am not entirely healed, so I reinforce my walls to rest in the safety of solitude, for now.

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Author: Undeniably Sara

Hi, I'm Undeniably Sara. I'm learning how to live well with chronic illnesses by focusing on self-healing with the goal of lifelong health.

9 thoughts on “Fear of the Past”

  1. When flying, they tell you in an emergency to place your air supply mask on first. Before trying to help anyone or do anything else. Because you must take care of yourself first even in an emergency or you will fail. Rest is good. You’ve got this.

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