Meditation gives me the ability to see what I already have and treasure it.
There are three things I must do everyday. Take care of myself, my family, and business. My all-encompassing trinity. I need all three. All three need me. We need each other in more ways than we realize. Finding a balance is the most difficult part for me.
Honestly, for most of my life I put business before myself and my family. I believed that providing for my family was the most important thing. By spending all my time working I failed myself and my family. By not taking care of myself, I was unable to see how much my family needed me. I was in a fog of poor health, exhaustion and poor life choices.
When I finally started trying to take care of myself, I was able to see how much my family needed me. I’m still in awe of how much it take to care for a family. I am much more capable of rising to this task when I take care of myself.
I’m not ashamed to say my first priority every day is to work out. I need it . It clears my mind and helps me feel I’ve accomplished something. Being a self-employed, work at home single mom, this is very important to me. Once I’ve worked out, I feel I can accomplish almost anything.
I can provide healthy food and a healthy environment for my children. I can generate enough income and resources to care for my family. I just need to work out first. I need to make sure I am present for my family. I can do this. So can you.
I must be a hippie gardener. The straight lines and boundaries of some gardens seem so restrictive. I like a more relaxed approach. Something natural. More like the plants would grow if the seeds just fell to the ground.
I have garden chickens that work for me and they don’t even know it! I have three large garden plots and rotate the chicken run in each of them every year. Last years run had many large sunflowers growing in it. The chicken ate some of the seeds but many fell onto the ground. We’ve had a long wet, cold spring here making it hard to get seeds planted. Since the chicken run was move I planned on planting a 3 sisters garden. That is corn, beans and squash. These three plants grow well together.
Before I could even work the ground sunflowers started popping up. I just don’t have the heart to chop them down. From what I’ve read, sunflowers are friendly to the 3 sisters. The Hippie 4 Sisters Garden was born.
We scattered corn, beans and pumpkin seeds all around the sunflowers. There are no rows or hills. No rigid boundaries. It will be beautiful. I will take pictures. I can’t wait.
I didn’t realize how much I’m driven by it. Thoughts, plans, actions, feelings. All fear.
I’m letting it go. It’s a process. Its complicated. It’s desperately needed.
I’m feeling lighter, free.
I’m feeling, not fearing.
In every place. All over creation.