Pain is Real

I was sick for so many years at work my co-workers never saw me healthy.  I was heavily medicated just to function in a partial capacity because of chronic migraines. When the medications stopped working, and the side effects became overwhelming, my dear co-workers thought I was faking illness.  Understanding chronic pain is almost impossible for those without the experience.  Many times the chronic pain does more than just hurt causing cognitive impairment and changes in brain function.  Some people fake illness for personal gain but I gained nothing but more pain and a new struggle – complete financial devastation.  Take your negative emotions and resentment about me missing work out of the equation, and you will see I had no reason to fake my illness and pain.  When I was at my most desperate, you abandoned me.  Someday you may experience an invisible illness, and I hope those in your life support you.  I don’t wish for anyone to suffer the same kind of betrayal I did from all of you.

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Yes, Another Migraine.

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chronic

adjective chron·ic \ˈkrä-nik\
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Simple Definition of chronic

  • medical : continuing or occurring again and again for a long time

  • : happening or existing frequently or most of the time

  • : always or often doing something specified

Source: Merriam-Webster’s Learner’s Dictionary 
September 15,2016
I have them almost every day.  No, not every migraine keeps me in bed or causes me to worship the porcelain god. Yes, each migraine hurts much more than the usual aches and pains. Most difficult is how every migraine short circuits my brain.  Doing any sort of math in my head is out of the question.  Computer work is tedious and entirely frustrating. I must pay particular attention to my driving as my migraines are so distracting.  I could take a pill and it might work.  I could take a pill and it might not do anything.  I could take a pill, again today, that will cause another migraine tomorrow.  That one will be worse.
I’m tired.  No, I’m exhausted.  Yes, I have another migraine… 😦